Opportunity, Present Thyself For Knocking

Well, I was "downsized" today.

The economy has hit Ye Ol Company pretty hard, so I guess it wasn't a surprise. (Well, the reduction in force wasn't a surprise...I was a little surprised that I was part of it). But don't cry for me Argentina, because I'm actually looking at this as a good thing. It is completely and without a doubt, a God thing.

Don't get me wrong, the last five years at Ye Ol Company have taught me a lot. I have job skills that will help me anywhere. My coworkers were nice, and overall it was a good company to work for.

But it wasn't my passion.

And for the past 6 or 8 months, I've really wanted to do something that I was passionate about. (As a matter of fact, that was one of my New Year's Resolutions for this year...find something to do that I'm passionate about. Funny how that worked out, isn't it?). I've felt this growing...restlessness...for a while now, but I didn't know what I needed to do about it. And with a steady, if unfulfilling job to fall back on, I admit that I didn't really have the courage to look too deeply.

Guess that all changes now.

When they told me, the overwhelming feeling was...relief. (So much so that I laughed out loud, which was definitely not the reaction that they were looking for). Relief that I was finally going to get to find something that I loved. Relief that this degree would be put to use. Relief that it is all completely in God's hands. And Ye Ol Company was really good about it. They gave me a severance package and set me up with a "job transition coordinator" who will help me polish up my resume and find something new. And we've got enough saved up for a rainy day that it won't hurt us financially. So it's all good. As good as things could possibly get. I am not sad at all. I am excited. The word that keeps circling through my head is "finally!"

I'm actually a little concerned that I'm not more upset. You would think that losing your job would create a fair amount of stress and uncertainty, but I'm not the least bit stressed or uncertain. It's really weird. It occurs to me that God has been preparing me mentally for this for a while. All the restlessness, all the desire to to something more, all the...twitchiness from being unfulfilled. I can't say that I was really expecting this, but now that I look at it, things have fallen into place so perfectly that I know it couldn't just be coincidence. And that makes all the difference.

So what will I do now? I'm not sure. I'll meet with the transition coordinator tomorrow and we'll pick out a new direction for me. This time around, I want something that makes me excited about getting up in the morning. This time around, I want to make a difference. This time around, anything is possible.

Thus begins my new adventure.


CortneyTree said...

It's definitely the season of being downsized, and since I went through the exact same thing two months ago, I am extraordinarily sympathetic! But I know what you mean about being excited about the new possibilities, and I wish you the best of luck in your "transition"! Making Lemonade out of all my lemons, that's part of my new year's goals ;)

Bluestocking said...

It's always best to do what you love.

Quirky said...

I appreciate the support and general well wishes. While I've changed jobs before, this is my first time being laid off, and I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to be feeling. Happy seems so...not quite right. Relief just keeps summing it up.

Pam at Antique or Not said...

Good for you! Sometimes we need the rug pulled out from under us to force us to change direction. Sounds like you have your head screwed on straight, which puts you ahead of the game.


cndymkr / jean said...

Wow. Just wow. I hope everything works out for you. It sounds like you are really well prepared for this. I can't wait to see what direction you go for now.

AZ Dog Mom said...

Well, you know, they say everything happens for a reason. We may not always be able to see or understand that reason right away, but there is a reason. But you're taking the positive approach and seeing the lighter side of the situation, which is great. Quirky, but great. ;D I'm sure you'll find something soon, and it will be something that you really do want to do. Best of luck!!

tootie said...

I don't know whether to say "I'm sorry" or "Congrats!" (Maybe both?)

Either way, it sounds like this will be the start of good things for you! Just have faith and don't give up! You will find something that you love.

Erin said...

Um...congratulations?! At least you get to find something you are passionate about. God's got something AMAZING in store for you I'm positive.